Jared came home from his deployment in one piece. His vehicle during that convoy mission was the target vehicle for an IED/EFP. So when he came home, it was like I was holding my whole world in my arms.. safe.. and alive... Jared and I tried for several months to try to get pregnant with no luck. We finally reached out to our doctor and got a referral for a fertility specialist. We made the long two and a half hour drive to see our new doctor with hopes that we would be comfortable. We immediately were very happy with the plan our doctor had for us and were anxious to get things started. After countless appointments, procedures and tests we found out that I have a few issues and so does Jared. We were accepted into the "wonderful" world of infertility. It was heartbreaking when we found out that we have so many things working against us. We have an amazing marriage, the best friendship a couple could ever have.. With how perfect our life together is, there's just one thing that we can't do for each other... Give one another a child.
...Ten months later...
To bring you up to current times, we have been seeing this fertility specialist for over 10 months now. I have been on several different fertility medications and so far it hasn't worked. We are currently waiting for next Friday because Jared FINALLY has an appointment with a urologist to hopefully find out whats going on with his sperm. It has been such an emotional roller coaster during our experience, but honestly... It has made us closer than ever. This journey has not broken us down as a couple but has brought us together in hopes that we will achieve our miracle.
The only thing holding us back at the moment is finances. Unfortunately Tricare will not cover IUI or IVF... and those are our next two options.. IUI is around $2,000 per round and IVF is at least $10,000. If we were able to do payments we would definitely be able to go through with it, but unfortunately our provider only takes payment up front at the end of every appointment. I don't know what we are going to do to come up with the money. I have currently been searching for different organizations that give grants or financial assistance to military members trying to conceive, but so far I can't find one that is right for us. I thought about making a donation site but I don't know if I would feel comfortable taking money from people to achieve OUR dream.. It just doesn't seem right, if we can't afford it or can't get some kind of grant then I would feel awful asking people for money.
All in all, we are basically stuck in a place and we don't know which direction to go. It would be amazing if we could afford the $2,000 out of pocket for IUI, but it just isn't something we can come up with all at once.
Either way, I will continue this blog during our journey to shed some light on those who have had pregnancy loss and for those who are new to infertility or have been going through it for several months or years.
I'm hoping that sharing our experience will help those that are going through the same. Infertility does not define who we are and it will not break us down.
Goodnight world.
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